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Today was a very good day...

I smiled a lot... :)

Thanks Philip... :)

I'm feeling a little...:
happy happy
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So apparently I pissed someone, if not more than one, person off tonight while playing. Tori kept calling me a 'whore' b/c apparently I was acting like one? Whatever, honestly. I was just screwing around... jeeze.

Richie might have actually wanted something from me but I HIGHLY DOUBT Philip did... so it was just all fun and games. I didn't know I was pissing anyone off. I hate getting into fights over stupid crap! Too much drama... auuuggghhh...

Me and Richie just had a fight about all this... message me or e-mail me if you want details cause I'm just not in the mood to give them right now.

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You can all shut up... i like these two songs... f-u...

"Come away with me"
Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song

Come away with me on a bus
Come away where they can't tempt us
With their lies

I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high
So won't you try to come

Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountaintop
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you

And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me


"Don't Know Why"
I waited 'til I saw the sun
I don't know why I didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

I would cross the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road alone

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Something has to make you run
I don't know why I didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

Right now I want a guy who will just lay with me in my room... no tv... no noise... just laying there... "safe there in your arms"...
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There are so many thing I want to say to you... I just don't know how.
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So Ozzfest was amazing! Well, except that fact that I kinda passed out and had to sit in the Green Room for like an hour. But other than that, it was cool. I LOVED disturbed, oh man, they were amazing. The singer, David, took about a 10 minute break from the music to talk about how HORRIBLE emo music is... "it's just a bunch of trendy-ass punks writing songs about breaking up with their 14 year old girlfriends and killing themselves. And if you'll notice, most of the bands start with the word 'the'"... He was soooo funny. Then he was talking about how "it's funny to think how I care more about the men and woman overseas then the f-ing president" It was a good time. It was worth the $40 just to see Disturbed. Lacuna Coil was there too, and I really enjoyed their show. Avenged Sevenfold was there, but most of us sat down for their performance. Except when they played a Pantara song. It was hot. Uh... let's see... hmm... oh Hatebreed was there, amazing. AMAZING. The side stage bands were pretty hot too. Oh and speaking of hot, we had a heat index of like 115 degrees. Me and Richie were religiously using sunblock and still got a little burned. Richie took good care of me there though, made sure I was drinking enough liquids and made sure I got something to eat. Ohhh... my bestest friend. THe times we've had...

LOVE YA ALL!

AMANDA
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Forfeit the game
Before somebody takes
You outta the frame,
And puts your name to shame,
Cover up your face,
You can't run the race,
The pace is too fast,
You just wont last

You love the way
I look at you
While taking pleasure
In the awful things
You put me through
You take away if I give in
My life,
My pride is broken

[Chorus:]
You like to think you're never wrong
(You live what you've learned)
You have to act like you're someone
(You live what you've learned)
You want someone to hurt like you
(You live what you've learned)
You wanna share what you've been through
You live what you learn

You love the things
I say I’ll do-
The way I’ll hurt myself again
Just to get back at you
You take away when I give in
My life, my pride is broken

[Chorus]

Forfeit the game
Before somebody takes
You outta the frame,
And puts your name to shame,
Cover up your face,
You can't run the race,
The pace is too fast,
You just wont last

Forfeit the game
Before somebody takes
You outta the frame,
And puts your name to shame,
Cover up your face,
You can't run the race,
The pace is too fast,
You just wont last

[Chorus]





I don't know who to trust, no surprise
(Everyone feels so far away from me)
Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies
(Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit)
(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)
(All I ever think about is this)
(All the tiring time between)
(And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)

[Chorus]
Take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you

Tension is building inside steadily
(Everyone feels so far away from me)
Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me
(Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit)
(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)
(All I ever think about is this)
(All the tiring time between)
(And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)

[Chorus]
I take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you

I won't waste myself on you
You
You
you
Waste myself on you
You
You
you

I'll take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you

Everything from the inside and just throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you
You
You
you




I can not take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I found bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you say
You'll find that out anyway
Just like before...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I found bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to...BREAK (break...break...)

Shut up when I'm talking to you!
Shut up!
Shut up!
Shut up!
Shut up when I'm talking to you!
Shut up!
Shut up!
Shut up!

SHUT UP!

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to...BREAK
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I have to say that Dark Light is beginning to be one of my favorite albums of ALL TIME. Ville, you will be the future father of my babies. (you too, richie!)

 

Ah, Ville Vallo. How gourgeous are you!

My favorite song so far? Without a doubt, Wings of a Butterfly. To see the video go to www.heartagram.com and click on "watch Wings of a butterfly" at the bottom.

Heaven ablaze in our eyes
We're standing still in time
The blood on our hands is the wine
We offer as sacrifice

[Chorus]
Come on, and show them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul, my love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul

This endless mercy mile
We're crawling side by side
With hell freezing over in our eyes
Gods kneel before our crime

[Chorus]
Come on lets show, them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul, my love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul
(Rip out the wings of a butterfly)
Don’t let go
(Rip out the wings of a butterfly)
For your soul

[Chorus]
Come on, and show them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul, my love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul
(Rip out the wings of a butterfly)
Don’t let go
(Rip out the wings of a butterfly) [x2]

For your soul

I'm feeling a little...:
happy happy
Sing to me::
Going between Dark Light and Razorblade Romance
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Again.... This Journal is Friends Only...

I'm feeling a little...:
distressed STRESSED
Sing to me::
The Used _ "In love and death"
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